Things are not on your side yet you behave you are the smartest one around the corner, it is not the stupidity but its being pretentiously caring for our well being desiring fears knowingly come into limelight and understood by everyone! Being smarter does not give you much of a respect when everyone does ignores you but you still know you will figure out the loopholes on your own while discussing things with others.
Who are we and why are we like this and when does it become so hard to connect with people so aggressively that we find people like us only in any form of those dots are lined up with the things you like and why not the opposite of one? Opposition has to be bad, opposition has to be unfair, opposition doesn’t make sense. But opposite thinking can drive to a better roads of your words and speech that can make a better preference in others mind and also gives a proper structure everywhere.
You saw someone, you just look at someone, you thought what simply is wrong with them and with a blink of eye their life comes in front of you and you think this person doesn’t deserves to be broken, and in a sight of moment that attention seeking power got correct and you think now it is your duty to make them feel alright and make them feel they are on the right place. Just because somebody did this for you, will you be doing for every broken person you see? Or someone you saw is slightly different from others?
It is a critical situation, well to understand, to put it into the structure, you are not a psychiatrist nor a therapist just a mental health advocate you make other feel what they deserves only because you didn’t get that in your life. Well for some people there is no such a quite perfect destination, their motive is to be a vagabond so they meet people in their lives and feel them, heal them and give them what they deserve, emotionally and mentally more of it.
A listener needs a listener too and who heals people they never have a listener and that is quite rare in some time they get someone who listens to them, feels them, make them feel what they are, who they are and especially why they are! Who they are and what they are types of questions get the answer but why they are doesn’t have the question more generally specific to anyone. It is like having a motive in life that for what purpose you are made for.
And the purpose what you are made for, it is an accidental feeling. What you do, what you seek, what you perform is more like having the answers of why you are but you feel it when you see someone from inside. It is an universal thing ! Once you have this habit there is no going back and it starts also from when for the first time somebody listens to you not what you speak verbally but what you cannot say, this only happens rarely with only a few people or only with single person whom you connected instantly.
It is also a rare thing that you can be open to someone because when you are stressing out you get angry, you ignore people, things, emotions and when someone irritates you at that moment you start to shout but when someone stick by your side you not only rant to them on the first go you cry, you say them you are in pain and they calm you, they make you feel comfortable by not words but by actions, to be just vulnerable with you and I guess that is somehow the prettiest things people do to heal others.
It is a cycle of loop that continues with from healer to healer but when you feels like you are the void instead of you are in the void. Firstly it take years to notice that you are the void because when you are in the situation of breaking for so many times in life you cannot go and start to heal people. You just enter so much into the void like it is consuming you and make you feel like you tried so much hating you and all the guilt in life of you, the mistakes you provided to your soul it has some meaning, some source and where the meaning lies there is your destiny is. That is your last stop!
Then you find the people like you who are broken, who wants to learn how to smile but did not show it. Who hides most of their emotion, most of their excitement so much of pretty intensely that you want that they have a need to pour their heart out with the rage of emotions they carry inside. That is a brutal pain, that is the brutal purity one always hide so that people cannot make fun of them or laugh at them or sees them like they are not normal.
Wired emotions, failure in life and things getting wrong in front of us that we cannot change make our life so much of confusing that we fail to justify ourselves in front of everyone. We have a self doubt, we lost our sight, self esteem and confidence to tell people that we too deserve happiness. We too are the victim of depressed thoughts and issues that are not good for us, that we did not deserve, that we shook always we forget who we are.
We deserve more something not so unique but still different but still same that others feel more advanced than them but cinematic-ally poetic, they have tendency to show the art. Tendency to show what is hidden inside them, tendency to grab power what is meant for them and tendency to be just so genuine in front of others that they don’t tell much about them still people knows what worth they carry and the reason behind it.
Thing is you don’t realize you are on the right track until and unless you feel who you are and journey continues to why you are. Each person is vagabond and each person deserves some destiny to reach in the end but some people their life deserves the journey, a journey of knowing people, getting people sufferings and heal them and transform them in their not best but a version of themselves they always wish to become. One always becomes so elegantly wrong but still correct that they deserves and requires what version of them they carry in their daily basis and why. People have always been confused to define but they should inspect either with the help of anyone or themselves with the learning they requires.