Things start to went abnormally even after you think that the purpose you wanted to fulfill, that you thought would have been completed. But no, hey that just has started and the amounts of dilemmas you had will get pay off now. From being unrecognized as the sufferer to getting paid like you wanted, you learned silent treatments are good if you use that positively. Things can take a wrong turn but not how you deal with it.
Yes, you cannot still look at that freaking mirror even today only because you still think you are not in the best version of yourself and that is the fear will eat you always but how the best version comes or how you make it or feel it or when you deserve it. Things take a long turn in life and you just see yourself suffering in it where you never thought of going there.
Life pretty much seems to be went in the way like that only. Yes, the road takes a different turn but you do the best from your end to accept that this is the only way now to go in life. And the passion that is just the snacks you have while going in that road. Not people but there, destiny are bit of a much interesting character on their own while battling the ego we think that is some self-respect we are claiming but what happens is slightly opposite to it, we having self-respect goes to claim ego and end up losing the demand of emotions we needed from such person.
Things went wrong because the purpose went wrong and purpose went wrong because we itself does not know what we are claiming. People are not aware of it and never will be that their lost mind is actually their lost life that they are forgetting to put that in the right track. They doesn’t need anybody’s assistance instead they need just right timing which they already have and need to learn how to activate it.
Everything should be right in perfect order but what if someone fails, how they deal with it? Losing confidence, gaining humiliation? And what about the motivation, what about the peace, what about the patience, what about the warm heart and what about the calmness? People who fail don’t think of any all of this but person right next to them, they shall care about it, they shall do it, they shall make them understand by words, actions, whatsoever the situation is demanding.
These are called psycho analysis of a person, the lack of confidence, day to day fear got everything wrong which may come a word into stammering that happens when one represses emotions and start conflict on their own. You cannot find satisfactory anywhere with whomsoever you talk, whatsoever you do and at first it seems so good but the day ends and starts and end and starts, you feel to recall your anxiety days and then you feel everything is witty now and cannot be expressed into happiness.
Something like you cannot unsee or that traumatic experience or a situation you have seen from so many ages you run away from it though those things have a beautiful visualization still you cannot feel to go there. People have a way of converting them into a version of them they never thought of to be and eventually they become that only. And they hate so much of them they even look in the mirror, and curse themselves, abuse themselves, taunt themselves for the thing they couldn’t achieve even after a lot of trying.
They kept on saying we have enough time and by the time that time has come which time they have to be something. It is okay if you started late but it Is also not okay if you did not paid attention even then as well. There are people who are in fear of failing doesn’t look to their face and some face only to curse, they have no sign of motivation but still go outside for hope.
They have a very different view in observing and what they observe they give a hundred percent of their brain on thinking what could happen next or what might be happening now. Things take a turn on how what it could be when nothing is in favor. Even after distancing from things, people, lives, they care!
They care of something that could not be shown only express to distress, they care silently, they make people understand carefully and make sure that things did not go with them like it went with them. Some situations co relate with others and you make suffering yours, is not how things shall handle but you think it can.
Why It can and why it should be? Does any of this make sense? Yes of course, but healing is not done in this form. Your healing is yours and there is there’s. You have a soft corner make them feel see your that corner, but making them seeing your suffering on how you are taking things are way depressing and there is no one to make it a whole concept understandable and if there is one, keep it tight, hold it right and no you cannot have that for life but their learnings can be with you your whole life.
That is sanity and how you should take it. and any other things if it meant to be It may happen anyhow and if not enjoy each minute, each moment of what Is going on and never forget sanity. There is a difference in being alone and lonely and sometimes you are alone and only wants to be alone but when you forgot your sanity you become lonely which only has one cure, that is to learn sanity from the scratch.
It may sound absurd or it could be but if you genuinely wanted to feel alright you have to learn from the scratch. And it is also okay if you do not tell anyone. Things take time to feel alright and if you dealing it silently it is perfect. Some silent treatments should be done that too in a correct manner even if you have no one you still have one. That is you and you only.
You can make anything or anyone comfort but if you leave your lifestyle or nature lonely it will affect you back straight from the start which is somehow pathetic and sometimes it may take weeks, months or even years but you come into the right track only if you have thought to come in sanity.