You are surrounded by many things. The environment where you should not be and thus you are somehow because you cannot run away from it, is one of them. It is not something like everything starts from the surroundings but everything that starts from the surroundings you do not deserve that to have in your life.
And if you have that suffocating emotions living down there and could not ask for help from anyone, it is alright, just need a little courage of waking your consciousness by having a good routine and if you doesn’t have that too, you got to be waiting for the right time and till then has to work on yourself to not to be perfectionist but to enhance and boost up your soul to think about the betterment of tomorrow.
It is for those, who doesn’t need help, doesn’t ask for help, but still ask for the advises indirectly and when you think and give answers you feel like you are living a life always dream of. People doesn’t know what they go through and what they are going through until they see themselves in the mirror and realize they have not lost something but themselves in the race of life, in the race of going forward, in the race of win, in the race of that turtle and a rabbit, we wanted to be that penguin who went away from his group and chose his own way of enjoying life. Just like the movie, INTO THE WILD. There is the book about it too!
A biographical adventure drama directed by Sean Penn, based on Jon Krakauer’s book about Christopher McCandless. It follows top student who abandons his possessions for a journey to the Alaskan wilderness, seeking truth outside of the society. I would recommend to read the book first if not want to watch the movie.
Everywhere we go we find different people, broken in different ways, dealing things in different styles but from the inside they all are the same. And same by mean, emotional classic way of how weak they are, how things they crave for. In the end they just need someone to listen, someone to lean the shoulder on, someone to match their sense of ability things so that they feel good about no judging.
They did not want to heal, they did not want to show they are broken and if someone asks about how are their life they don’t tell it either but when you put things aside when you actually ask them why are they, you will get to know every minute detail about them and it also makes them feel comfortable eventually you are part of their life. You start to heal them in some what way that you did not want to make them feel you are healing them.
Healing someone is not just a duty but a responsibility to not only to get about them but to make them realize their worth, their actions, and their purpose behind what actually is happening is in their favor or not. And if yes how it is helpful and if not, how to make it helpful!!! And healing someone doesn’t mean you are their therapist, people run away far from therapy (self experienced) people run far so much away from it, it makes you feel you are betraying your emotions.
Knowing your emotions is not betraying, you feel you have a heavy heart, you cannot cross that border of acceptance, you carrying numbness, void, emptiness and even grief all your life. If we start talking about a heavy heart, it is painful to have it, to not feel lighter is something an unusual way of cheat code of death that you consume but the moment you find someone to talk to you without any reason or intention tells everything even if being socializing is not your thing and when you feel that lightness like a heavy tonne of weight got away from the heart that you were carrying for so long you didn’t realized it was stopping you to feel emotions.
And the person you start talking to, you do not know them, you don’t know who are they, what they do and where does they live but you just talk to them, to you know what it is? A plan of destiny? Or a rescue from the nature? Even when you tries to kill yourself through many variations and you fail to do that and you survive and then you meet someone you hug them you talk to them you feel normal after losing everything. They are your mains you stick to be with.
You do not have to worry what one thinks of you, what one assumes of you or what feels about you, if you are happy you got to be stay happy either with someone or alone and that is your power, that is your freaking intensity of living a life. You are one of those who carries a good soul inside you that protects you from becoming the other side of coin. Though both are to be seen in a person but who you generally are is seen with the amount of how you catch things frequently.
And now If we speak of how we cannot cross the border of acceptance, it is quite simple as that your mind does not allow to make you feel far beyond that because you don’t have the answers to assume what will happen next and the moment you will know it is alright to know that it is okay to have a heavy heart the moment you will have a sense of realization that you are accepting things, you are accepting yourself, you are loving yourself and start to feel things that you know is in your hands and they were straight from the start but when you think you are ready to accept you start seeing it.
The emotional numbness, the void, the emptiness and the grief it is all the buried emotions inside you that come all together because you cannot keep it inside you for too long. And that doesn’t make you weak, that makes you strong enough to let things go and come, let things come and pass, let things be on your own, not to be the plan of destiny, but to be the part of nature. Yes, destiny to plays an important role in one’s life but what you feel or what life makes you do it is not always destiny mostly it is the nature and by nature I mean, things that go with the flow of which we have no control, we didn’t acquire some space from it. And destiny, we have control in it, we can change it, we can shape it wit whatever we want to do.
And that is why mostly people retire early from their work or start something late at life, but that doesn’t mean you are late you just got a better idea of doing something good at a time that is accurate for you to do. That you are mature enough to not procrastinate more what you really need to do always. It is your life, cheers to it. THE MAIN MOTIVE IS TO TALK AS MUCH YOU CAN AND FEEL FREE ABOUT YOURSELF.