Suffering comes from pain and pain comes from fear and fear comes from panicking and you panic when you feel alone and you feel alone when you think you are lonely and you are lonely when you hate your life and you hate your life when you think the mistakes you did it cannot be purified nor in the present nor in the future, because any day that is passing by is not in the favor of you.
It is the start of when you think you are the only one left out there who is suffering but when you look closely deep down everyone is suffering either with fear or without fear but they just know how to be happy and not to hate their life. Their mind is pure and heart is kind and that is what make them deserves all of it but that does not mean they have nothing like chaos in their life.
Chaos enters but they tackle it, they please themselves with a better outcome and a clear mind. They know when to isolate and when to show up. People out there those who have void, it is very much unclear to them to balance the chaos not because they do not how to deal with it but only and only because of they hate their life and not give themselves a gut wrenching moment of relief to love their life.
They forget if they will give themselves a holiday, things will be clear and even if they know it, they will be having the fear of how to survive next. For them the ending is when their chaos will end but it is wrong. Chaos never ends, suffering never leaves us, when you have a fear, it became trauma and it stop you for being positive and you eventually started crying.
That trauma is not good, that fear is a killing machine of emotions, you may feel not good, you may become so much of introvert you run away from the emotions but you have to face any your trauma one day and then you cannot run. That feeling is not being caged but to make you ready to face off, of what you are not ready of and sometimes it is necessary.
You may seem it is scary but somethings need to end and you may have to understand and listen all of these for number of times. But you got to have restart your life anyhow one day. And you need to feel this as you are growing not day by day but minute by minute. People may come and go, some stay and some not, emotions can change or vary from situation to situation maybe something to better every time but your trauma it will only end if you give yourself a chance before with anyone else you have to give you a chance.
Situations can be alright from every perspective it is just the way how you see it. it is as simple as understanding as when a person who does not hate animals but still is not an animal person yet start to love animals slowly just for a change or when you are a mountain person visit ocean for a first time, everything is new for them and things already began to make them understand how peace can be feel.
Peace is everywhere, in a place, in a person, or inside you, just feel it and you will understand what a true love is. You do not have to compare anything neither complaint. Just evacuate yourself from things that does not belong to your soul neither your heart and nor to your mind. Yes, hating yourself is a must sometimes but loving yourself is also as important as any other thing not to be get scared, not be positive but for being optimistic.
Things are clear to you only when you are clear to them. It is normal people change, they get better and sometimes things for them even at their worst they know it is the path so lets just go with the flow, it is not the question of consciousness or subconsciousness or stupidity or cleverness, just the key of having faith in journey, in situation, in yourself whatever will be happen it will happen with a quite similar way the way you treat yourself.
People, situations, fear, sufferings everything comes at a same point when you decide when to hate things and when to love things. Everything matters only when you know where the key is hidden and when you find the key you found the solace, and that is the peak moment to capture not in the camera duh, but in your soul and in your memories so if you ever fell a bit off, think of that time and you know you have learnt a lot from your pas, and that is good thing and not to repeat what wrong you have ever done.