Ego clash, incidents happen in the heat of the moment, guilt that harm us, make our sensitive side die instead of making it coming out more. Do you think it is a part of life? Of-course it is and why it should not be, huh? It is a part of life that lies upon the sin which is unacceptable by any freaking time or whatever you do, you just make the pain less rather than killing it for good.
Not the sin which is somehow includes small little things but the moments that can change your life without even noticing you. Like devastatingly it wasn’t in any intention but you did, what? Drink and drive. Did anybody told you to do it? No, not even your own instincts. Or the second thing, like hurting yourself in believing you are doing not right but the person in front of you will understand not your action but why you did it.
To make them feel inferior just because you wanted to be superior, heck no! But playing with the most ego centric part of yours to be the one of them who does not know what is going inside them but still knew what to talk about them in terms of disturbance. And believe me they are very good advisors if you will communicate with them and you may find the answers that lies there only but did anyone think it was all the reflex action that made them self-harmed themselves.
Nobody will get to the point too deeply but the question is, if this matter is too deep and it is then will anybody be sane around that person just to make them feel it wasn’t any guilt, it wasn’t the suicide, it wasn’t the attraction of the chaos, it wasn’t that they lost the calmness and even if it is the reflex action then I guess it wasn’t their fault though just to showing their ego is in the first place.
But I must say, the thing that made all of this happened is all because of their intentions were pure, they said the words carefully (the harsh one, which obviously each one of us says and regret later) and method of act was made it all unclear that somehow not just clarified the past which was deep buried but also resolve the issues only if someone is still reliable to sit, talk and then understand completely rather than knowing and shouting it is their fault after all.
But still my question is, how it is a sin and how it destroys and betrays us overall?
You all have heard, ego destroys everything. But I say what the main reason of destruction is the suppression of a person and their jolly kindness towards it. Haven’t seen anybody who took care of it like they took of their bad habits or take time out for their passion. By the time passes away like how the people ages when the time runs out actually. they usually forgot what is the main reason of their suppression and why the suppression is there?
As if it was a mere identity of them that they lived with how much time does the destiny have given to them and in return they did not want anything only except how a cheap life plans they had like to make a family and to have kids and a settled job just a regular normal person. Problem here is not about being a regular person but the actual problem arose when you did not want to resolve your issues with yourself.
How could you not be resolve any of the issues with yourself and claim you can perform the politics of life, of country just by giving advices.
Justification is good, claiming is even better but when you do not know what is going on inside you how can you justify or claim about anything else and not just It but how could you not see everything around you and be cool with it.
People around you, you take inspirations from them and not just like a particular or titular some kind of idol but far aspect ratio of how their communications affect you even more like when they do not with you but with whomsoever they are and how you are affected by it but still not take any action against it.
Taking any action against it, is the step forwarding to understand yourself, to grasp things easier than you thought to improvise your thinking capacity, improvise your character. Improvise your style, and importantly to improvise your mature understandings like it should be. To have a proper carrier way of knowing what is going inside your head, inside your heart and inside your soul too.
And take time to speak what is inside you more than what is it you really want to do. Or it can both be inter-related as well. Though in some case it differentiates too but mostly it is all the same game to go back in the loop of understanding and shall not do anything either in the heat of the moment or purposely which can become more of your mental trauma and the inner guilt as well.
But if we talk about to differentiate what you really want to do or what you really want to speak is yeah, things can go differently like if we speak of what you really want to do you did not know nor you have thought about it but you are clear about one thing you will never do the thing which you hate. It is not your subconscious mind taking the decision though it is your soul wanting from you and saying of realizing what is that one thing you really need to do.
It is not like this you are ignoring your instincts but it is more like you haven’t figured it out now due to your ego but you know you will never figure it out anytime sooner in the future as well and that is why some day you can think of doing what you really hated but still you did not realize that might be your best decision of your life and when you quit doing that, it would be the day you are ignoring your instincts but it is also following what more of it you want to explore but that also does not mean you will like that your whole life and you will decide to go back there where you belonged and the version who will go back will be not your best version but your kindest too.
And speaking of what you really wanted to speak is, no matter how you can take things differently it is proportionally as well to what you do. You know you are suppressing things, your emotions know it but who does not know the person who is living outside, whose ego is bigger than his hidden personality which is making a huge mistake of prioritizing their ego in front of any important task they shall do or any important talk they have to do with anyone either they are family members, friends, colleagues.
It represents everything much more than what you think, deserve, desire and do sins as well unconditionally but later you are no one to put the allegation talking to the statues who you worship. It is none of their business. But it is your business of like what you really want to speak, do it like a whole of becoming a calm and sorted person in life and if you cannot do it then your sins will destroy it before you will even realize that for sure.
This feels emotional, like you are thinking out loud and grabbing truth about the pain.
The lines grapples ego, not just as being the “proud”, but as something hidden behind, when we’re hurt and confused.
It shows how super quick, emotional actions, like drinking and driving or hurting yourself, can happen when we’re not in control of our feelings. Impulsive reflexes.
It asks deep questions “Is guilt always fair? Are we bad people just because we made a mistake?”
but I liked how It talks about how we hide our softer, more emotional side, and that hurts us over time. Many people live a “normal every day life” without really solving or even looking for a solution to the problems within themselves. The passage cuts to how ego can cover up who we really are, making it hard to connect with others or ourselves.
It reminds me: if we don’t understand our own feelings, we can’t give good advice or expect others to understand us right.
also how what we do and what we want to say are often very different. very very different. Well your piece encourages to speak from the heart and act with understanding, and the star point i like is “not just react in anger.”
It’s a clear warning with bright blood red to us not to ignore our gut feelings, because it can stop us from finding what we truly love.
And finally, if I have to sum up my review, this blog or Particularly YOU., asks us to be kind, calm, and honest with ourselves.
because if we’re not, the guilt and pain will catch up with us. in the very worst cases of self harm and harm to our loved ones.
Good worky!
-Maheek
It is so beautiful and so realistic, it is so hard to actually go through thus ego part, where actually the other person loses the good you had for them!
Hatts off!!